Monday, May 25, 2009
After she got on the plane, I didn't go up to her place, not as often as I did before.
Her mother even asked me why she don't see me going up already. I'm speechless. The only reason is that I'll not see her up there anyway.
After the painful flight, I spent my days in the Philippines mostly on the laptop. talking to him of course.
We spent the whole month away from each other on the laptop, on video calls, filling each other's heart.
Each time that we weren't talking on the laptop, I would look at our picture together.
I still remember how I rushed home everyday just to be on time to talk to her online and see her on webcam. Still remember when I went out with Wee Long and the rest, after we ate, I said I needa rush home to be online because she was waiting. There's was one night, Aaron came along and he was supposed to come over my place and stay. After we had our supper at Lao Pa Sat, I immediately took a cab home with Aaron and turn on my laptop once I got home.
After I flew from Manila to London, I told everyone there bout him, I've never talked bout any guy like I did bout him to anyone. One day, it just crossed my mind that I really truly did like him for sure, then I turned to Jie and said "Jie, I see Frederick and I, going into a relationship, a long term one". it kinda surprised her, me saying that. I counted the days till I know I'll see him again.
we questioned one another bout the day that she'll return, will it be awkward, funny or normal? haha.
I waited all along for her return while talking to her almost everyday on webcam. There was this once, she somehow was listening to what I was saying, I thought she was just guessing what I was saying. In the end, We can actually talk to each other. I didn't realized at first but it was just really soft so i had to use my iPod's earpiece and hold my laptop close to my face, while talking to her.
While he was ordering Macs on the phone one time, I realized I could actually hear him talking. From then on, we started talking instead of typing. I wanted to see if I really did like him one time and I decided I should just ignore him for a few days and it was pretty torturing. I kept wondering from time to time, what made me like him because all the other guys that I've liked before were all very different from him.
Those days which she said she wasn't free to come online really dampened my feelings and made me sad as I thought that we'll be talking everyday, but still I did get to talk to her the following day or so. =) I was Glad that I could actually contact her somehow because when she was at the airport, leaving singapore, I wasn't sure how to contact her. But, luckily there's MSN!
I was happy to be on my flight back to Singapore, with my hair all done up and face filled with make-up, not because of him! I was going for Prom that's why. I was thinking bout the days on the laptop, on webcam and my holiday all ending like waking up from a dream. And also fearing, what it would be like to be seeing him face-to-face again.
I went all around London, spent my birthday in Spain all at the same time with him in my mind.
When I arrived at the airport, I was already late. she told me that the plane arrives at 6:15p.m. but I arrived at 6:30p.m. ! I was panicking and lost when I saw the departure board saying the plane had arrived and she was nowhere to be seen. At first, I was planning to give her a kiss as she walks out of the departure hall. But, I just couldn't bring myself to do it because we haven't really got into a relationship yet. I called her a few times and finally, she picked up the phone, telling me that she saw me. I was waiting outside for her to walk out. As she walked out, she gave me a hug, I was quite stiff when i hugged her back.
My flight landed 15minutes late and I was wondering if he waited too long and left or if he didn't come at all but as soon as the plane landed, I rushed to the departure hall. And damn it, I was late for Prom as well and my baggage took forever to come out. I saw him standing there, while I waited for my baggage and I knew he couldn't see me because of his small eyes. As I walked out of the departure hall, I knew it, I felt it! It was that awkward feeling so we said "hi" and I just leaned over to give him a little squeeze. I rushed to look for a toilet to get changed into my dress for prom while he passed me a little black paper bag saying its my belated birthday gift. Honestly, I felt intimidated to open it. I opened it and he took it from me to put in on for me. I got changed and we hopped onto the cab, headed to chevrons. In the cab, I gave him a peck on his cheek.
Before I even bought her, her birthday gift, I asked Huiru to be my model for that day. We went to Takashimaya to buy the necklace, I went into several shops before I decided on that one as the rest didn't really attract me. And so, Finally I bought the Chanel necklace for her, Thanks to Huiru, It turned out to be a nice one! And not to forget, Aaron accompanied me that day too. When I passed it to her, I helped to put it on her. When we got into the cab, I asked her for a kiss and she really gave me one on my right cheek, I was surprised actually, as I wasn't expecting a kiss from her as I was just joking actually. In the end, I went back to her place with her luggage alone, helped her packed a little and then I went to Telok Blangah Crescent for some funeral.
Strawberry
